| Maggie, I know you are watching. |
[09 Apr 2012|01:56pm] |
"Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control."-Unknown-
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[31 Jan 2012|09:04am] |
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我们的度量都非常小。
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| making a decision and staying with it |
[22 Dec 2011|01:11pm] |
many times i thought i made up my mind. but similarly, many times i wavered. I can't stick onto the same decision i made. Why is that so?
Why did i agree to continue on?
Because i feel i can do it. Because everyone is helping me to complete it. Because everyone is hoping i can stay on. Because its my responsibility. Because it will be good for my future. Because of the money. Because it might save the world.
And why do I not want to continue?
Because I feel it to be pointless. Because my prof keeps changing my ideas. Because its stressful. Because I do not like experimental research work. Because i feel i cannot do it. Because i am depressed by doing experiments. Because there is too much work. Because this is not me. Because of paper writing. Because its not my cup of tea. Because the exit is simple.
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| decision |
[29 Jul 2011|10:32am] |
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its not surprising for me to leave, and its only right for me to stay. There is no right or wrong, just passion, so long as there is no room for regret.
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[11 Feb 2011|03:07pm] |
等雨，躲雨，藏雨。
不。我没有哭，那都是雨水。
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| Ripple effect |
[04 Nov 2010|02:06pm] |
In life, you could be a ripple, the source of energy for the ripple, or just an oscillating molecule within the ripple. When you are part of the ripple, you tend to see yourself as something insignificant. But in actual fact, you are a component of something majestic, something wave churning. Would you want to be an intricate part of a major force?
Or would you rather become the rain drops which generate waves and ripples?
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| Fate |
[06 Oct 2010|02:38pm] |
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Are you one who goes with the motion of fate? or one who creates the motion of fate?
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| shackle |
[30 Sep 2010|01:46pm] |
I am shackled. By a beautiful shackle.
A shackle which i may remove by moving away
But i place my arm in it, it did not snap.
I put my arm in it. holding it in place.
i am shackled, by this beautiful shackle.
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| How long is the darkness towing into the light? |
[28 Sep 2010|05:05pm] |
I asked myself, what do i want? i want to be happy.
Brother: Going into another job might not exactly make u happy.
Eu: why not be happy and enriching at the same time?
Bh: ok what..
Maggie: go with your heart
Mum: you are just lazy.
prof: you will never get the answer, and before you know it, you got the PhD
me: ok i will do it. Although it is not what i want. I will swallow...
No turning away.
BURN!
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| WHY |
[08 Sep 2010|04:53pm] |
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Why am i feeling so unhappy. sep 8, 16:47. is it due to microbial techniques? is it due to the massive amount of work to do in future? do i have the right attitude towards research work? is it my cup of tea, or is it my poison? out of melvin, terence, and me, I am the only one who questioned myself. Do i live for myself or do i live for others. I am so lost. suddenly, i stopped. and i thought to myself.. "i want to do this."
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| Micro-organisms |
[07 Sep 2010|05:12pm] |
I struggle, I might not get out unharmed
I let loose, and sink deeper into it.
I wonder what will happen at the bottom,
or is there a bottom at all..
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| urg. |
[05 Aug 2010|05:19pm] |
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I am feeling the same feeling i felt when i was a Comdpa. The feeling that you may not proceed onwards.. but many a times, I felt that I could do a really wonderful job if i had stayed on as a comdpa. So now, i am telling myself. Do not give up! ONWARD!
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[31 May 2010|10:26am] |
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满招损，谦受益。这话真的没错。一向以为前呼后应是一种symmetry，而symmetry都是美的。但如果开头不怎么样，那结尾的不怎么样也会反映出一种美吗？
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| Transit |
[12 May 2010|09:22am] |
Looking back at the past four years, even I, myself, found significant growth within different aspects of me.
When i first stepped out of the Army camp and into the university orientation, my main thoughts then were to attract, to be fashionable, to look cool. Interestingly, I sought of achieved what i wanted. I have these hi and goodbye friends ambushed everywhere within campus, but their campaign only lasted through my first year. As year one of the engineering curriculum consists of mainly general modules, I tend to stick more closely with Terence, Yip, Chun Wei. My current classmates-turned-friends were a blurr to me then. Socially, I may seem to be always amongst friends with all the Hi(s) and bye(s), but I know, i am deeply entrenched within my own group of four and i don't have many friends in university. So what is it going to be like for me when the curriculum starts to focus into our respective specialization? I just went with the flow, and started mingling with my classmates. Starting with project groups, I told myself that I would "try" out different people to do projects with, so that I may assess them more thoroughly. and as we all know, cliques start to form during the first semester of the second year, when we had no choice but to mingle with classmate as specialization starts. Fabian, shaun, Melvin, me and some other girls thought that we belonged to one clique. Despite being in a clique, I sought to invade and form groups with other people. Good thing Shaun's level of tolerance is higher than my level of selfishness. I caused him to be always in need of group members for the 5th semester (projects semester). Well of course i was not the only culprit. So what has this taught me? I like to work in groups where members listen to me and follow instructions. I do not mind doing all the work alone. Basically i'm a control freak. So is this good or bad? Good in a sense that i am able to control the outcome or the results, bad when the members are not self-disciplined to learn. Somehow i have a feeling that this dominative behaviour is bad, but logic often persuades me that the good outweigh the bad. Me Me ME... so much for me.
I was asked this question: what was the craziest thing you did in university? My first instinct told me "to fall in love and get attached with Maggie". But that should be "the craziest thing you did in life". So i re-think the question, and my mind was a blank. The most exciting experience i remember was to bunk in with tian hao. The most loving experience was those 188 bus rides. The most productive time were those spent while waiting for maggie. The silliest thing I did was to email my lecturer to tell him he is wrong, and only to apologise for my mistake and at the same time, attached my term essay for his grading on the same email. (Good thing he is not the bias sort). The most accused moment was when i saw my forum post being spanked by the TA and some other girl, about me being insensitive, only wantng instant gratification, all the bad characteristics of a city kid etc. When my main aim of the post was to direct people to a mangrove swamp which is more accessible.
Dean's list and good grades? I was asked this question from two of the faculty professors: why do your results become better towards the end of your 4 years? Did you play too much in the first 3 semesters? My reply: oh, I feel that the modules become easier as we specialise, and I thank my lecturers for my grades.
What has uni made me into? A person who is confident of typing letters, wielding the pen, a critical thinker. Boring.
Some modules which i think are a must take:
ES2007S, Professional communication in the workplace - easy module, useful
GEK1508, Einstein universe and quantum weirdness - very good lecturer, lets u understand national geographic and discovery channel
SW2104, human development throughout the lifespan - applicable in real life
SS2207, National heritage in singapore - possibly the best module. Its about plants and animals in SG.
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[26 May 2009|08:46pm] |
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what? you are still checking this site out?
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| exams |
[18 Apr 2009|08:03pm] |
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reframing diversity by thking out of the box, thking of multitude of identities rather than being biased.... social/psycho......horseshoe crabs, tembusu, blue spotted sting ray, periwrinke, both a plant and a snail. calotes veriscolor changeable lizard......ethics are not right or wrong. ethics are codes and rules we abide to. uphold the profitability of employer and safegurad human health and property, canon 1 being all encompassing.......narcardic foaming, denitrification and nitrification bacterias have maximum substrate utilisation rate and observable yield which is the usually smaller than the theoretical yield, calculated from the growth rate subtrating the endogenous decay. Function of time and assumed to be of steady state conditions.............. coagulation aids are added with polymeric aids and flocculated slowly to aid floc forming....disinfection of water by chemicals poses deinfectant byproducts by which only UV irradiation is the least with DBPs. Cheap Chlorine, expensive ozone. advance oxidation processes reduces odour problems...NEWater rocks.. Mug...Mug............Maggie!!!!! I want to play!!!!
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| supermarket |
[13 Feb 2009|06:07pm] |
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reminds me of the time i went to publix and walmart. =)
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